Ugh

I made it to France…at it wasn’t/isn’t easy. I know some people have been waiting for me to give an update as to my status and want to know more. Unfortunately, I have been struggling to find internet access (since the foundry doesn’t have it!). I finally got access last night…and awoke this morning to awful news.

My good friend Foss’ dad died suddenly last night. Being so far away, I don’t know many of the details. This sucks! A really good friend of mine is dealing with such a tragedy and here I am…in France. I’ve been consumed with thinking about the Foss’ all morning…what would I do if I was there? How would I try to comfort her? I’ve figured out that all you can do is “be there” and if you’re needed, or see your spot to help out, you do it. In the instances where I’ve been close to someone or a family member of someone who died, there are always those people who make a difficult situation SO much easier by just being there. It really bothers me that I won’t be able to do that for Foss.
This is what stinks about my job. I can’t “be there”. Friends are supposed to be there at a drop of a hat to help each other out. You know someone for almost 25 years and due to a stupid job, you miss out on the really important moments. It is so frustrating to know that I won’t be able to go to the funeral of a really terrific guy, and to show my friend how much he meant to me and what she means to me. She’s got a million friends and a good support network, so I know she’ll make it through it. I just feel that this job gets in the way of my living a normal life sometimes. I’m not a outwardly caring person (I care, I just don’t always come across that way, and I’m not in your face about it), but I’m good in these moments…when I’m around. I feel awful I won’t be there. I feel worse about what the Foss’ are going through right now.